Well let’s see….where shall I begin….? Let’s start here….Hi I’m Wendy!! Welcome to my blog….”Pieces of Me”. What exactly is Pieces of Me you ask? Good question because we are going to figure it out together. Interested in being a passenger on my journey to find my passion?
This all begin with two pressing questions and interests I’ve had for a long time: 1. Having an interest in blogging; and 2. Figuring out my passion<—–million dollar question. Well one would think these are two easy solutions right? Start a blogging account and start doing what you love….SIMPLE!!…..uhhh….NO!!! Why you ask? because I am so much more complex, complicated and over analytic than a SIMPLE answer LOL. Seriously, what I struggle with is (not tooting my own horn…but toot toot) I am actually good at a myriad of things. Again, most would say okay soooo what’s the problem? Pick one of those myriad of things and keep it moving…stop tripping. But ahhh….please go back to the aforementioned….me…complicated….complex….remember?? Okay, now you’re with me.
I’ve often been referred to as a “Jack of ALL trades” while most wouldn’t dare to complete the sentence I shall because I’m a realist…..what good is a Jack of ALL trades…if you’re a “Master of NONE”. Okay, I know what you are thinking, Wendy, relax you are being overly dramatic about this and too hard on yourself; perhaps, but what if I’m not? The way I think is it’s GREAT to be able to put your hands in/on a little bit of everything BUT isn’t it even BETTER to be able to be known for that ONE THING? What’s that ONE THING that you do and do well? As a matter of fact you do it BETTER than WELL. Have you started pondering about your gift/talent yet? Yep…that’s what I want…that’s one of my long desires, to find that ONE THING that I’m not just decent at but GREAT! (well that I can share with the world anyway….hehe you know where this could go….hehehe)
So speed up some (are you keeping up with me?…..I move fast). What does that have to do with the blog, Wendy. Glad you asked! Most people blog about what they are GOOD/GREAT at doing (with the exception of some really randoms floating out there…but hey who am I to tell them otherwise). So anyway, I put a question on one of my social media pages inquiring ideas (topics) about a possible blog. Well I got a few different ideas (all good) but there was one that stuck out the most for me. Totally paraphrasing but how I believe EYE remember it was “Wendy, you are a AWESOME, SPECTACULAR, DYNAMIC person *wink…hey this is my blog I can remember how I want lol*…you are really good at so many things I’m sure you could write about a lot of things”. Eureka!!!! STOP the Presses!!! Holy Sugar Cane Batman!! They are right, I am good at many things so why can’t I write about those very things that I’m good at with incorporating some new things I want to experience and see if I’m able to find that ONE THING! What’s the worse that could happen I find out that I suck at nothing (hehehe….close your mouth I’m joking….even I’m not that self absorbed). But seriously, I spend so much time speaking into other people’s life that I realized I don’t allow myself the same allotted time, space or energy to figure all of my own layers out. Truth is while I love helping and encouraging other people it can sometimes be a little draining (hence why I have very little time to figure all of me out) but it’s also comforting because it gives me an excuse to not figure out my unknowns. Which I know….I know…stop shaking your head at me, it’s a poor excuse (Excuses are the tools of incompetence…) and I need to do better…I know…I know. That’s why I’m here. If I had to be completely honest….I mean completely honest….*looks to the left and right to see who is eaves dropping* I am…eh hem..whispers….afraid to fail. Okay, I won’t totally punk out I will speak above a whisper BUT I’m not ready to shout at the mountain top. I’m Afraid to Fail. *mountain top shout would have been ALL CAPS* Just for future references. But seriously, I don’t think most people like the idea of failing and before you tell me, I cognitively understand that failing does not have to be bad…I get it…I really do BUT I still have never liked it (ME NO LIKEY). However the older I’m getting, the wiser I’ve become (check out ALL the gray strands of hair for evidence of my wisdom haha), the more I look at successful people I know failing doesn’t have to be viewed as negative but a process, a way for me to find out what I need to improve. I than began to think….Who the hell do I think I am that I can’t fail and have to be good at everything? A little self righteous, huh? Okay, so I take the self absorbed comment back above….maybe I am….just a little….a little tiny minuscule bit.
So before before I continue rambling on and providing a self counseling session and giving myself tissues for my issues….“Pieces of Me” is going to serve as a place for me to share my journey of the different pieces of myself. My goal is to continue doing those things that interest me, that I like and love….Cooking, baking, decorating, arts&crafts, designing (clothes, shoes, jewelry), home improvement and many more. But also allowing myself to try new things that have peaked my interest or that I’ve never really committed too…like..Sewing, dancing (ballroom, stepping), travel by myself. And of course lastly, to attempt those things that I want and need to do but I’m afraid to take the chance because I’m afraid of failing…..take my counseling license exam, open a business, express my feelings with no regret.
More than anything I’m ready to step out of the “box” that I have allowed so many to keep me in. BTW….that box is figurative…please do not call 911 and send them to my house no one is keeping me in a box LOL. But seriously, I want to do even more things than I have already experienced BUT more importantly have little to no regrets about them. So, when I take up sewing and I end up making a Gordon Gartrell shirt like Denise did on the Cosby Show, I don’t want to be down in the dumps about it I want to be PROUD about my One of a Kind Gordon Gartrell shirt….Lol.
I hope while I’m figuring out the Pieces of Me…..some one else may also get inspired to figure of the Pieces of them….
Check out the video I posted by Ledisi….Pieces of Me. It’s my theme song of the year and pretty much sums up what I hope this journey will encompass.